i am weighed down by so much. depression, anxiety, & nightmares are more constant for me than breathing & my heart hurts so much nites, that i wonder how near the end really is. & i am not afraid;; i am only let down because i always expected something more, so much more.
& here i sit alone, encircled by broken dreams, & writhing hopes, & shattered memories. & they say that a broken heart still beats, but i don't hear a sound.
written on 2003-10-27 at 11:31 a.m.
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