I have been inspired today. I have been inspired by a whole combination of things. But the end result is the thing that is important. And that is, I am happy with me!
I am not perfect. I know that I am so very far away from perfect. But still, I am me. There is no one else like me and there never will be. I am irreplacable, even if not to anyone else, I am still irreplacable to this universe!
I know that this entry is not moving or touching. I know that it might sound vain. It's just something that I need to say. Because I realize that the portrayal of myself that I share in this diary is a very, very depressed one. And this is certainly a huge part of me, but there is another part. And although it is very hard to see, because I keep it hidden down so far out of reach, it is still there. And even though I am ashamed of it and I do not let most people see it most of the time, that doesn't mean it goes away.
Yes, I know it's a shock, but I do love me.
written on 2003-04-07 at 9:14 p.m.
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