i missed one class already because i simply could not get out of bed. (i think it's the zanex, but maybe i'm just making excuses.) but i'll be at the next one. yes, i'll make up the difference, all the differences.
today i will fight. today i will struggle to stay above water. today i will work towards normalcy. today i will make myself fucking sick, already am.
i want to be surrounded by beautiful things. only they say happiness is your state of mind, not your material possessionsssss. (must add lots of s's because material is evil, serpent like, temptation in the garden of evil, yea.)
goals for the day: no blood, no tears, no lies.
written on 2004-03-31 at 9:30 a.m.
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