i cleaned my room yesterday, threw away two full garbage bags of clothes & all my folders & notebooks from highschool. i didn't want to part with any of it. i didn't want to let go. & i was going through old papers & i found things that i never wanted to find. i found papers with yr name on them;; yr name in hearts. our names in hearts. the date that you killed me in big, blue-inked block letters across the bottom. those were the things that i never wanted to come across because i knew. i knew how i would cry & i did.
but it didn't take long for me to look around. to look at the new glass rainbow fluttering against my white walls. & everything was okay.
written on 2004-02-04 at 9:53 p.m.
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