a little bit of a resurrection
my life journal: cutmedown








all i need


i didn't want to fall in love again. & this is why. i didn't want to open up. i didn't want to let anyone in; ever, ever again. every word that i have ever spoken can only pale in comparison to what i speak now. if nothing else in this place [world] is true, this is the one thing that is.

it's been a nightmare. everything that i've ever known. [until you.] everyday that i've cried, everday that i've bled, i've regretted & hated. but right now i would do it all again if that's what it took for me to get to you. i would do it all again [2x; 3x; 4x; whatever it takes.]

i didn't want this, any of this. but i've got it. & i don't know what to do.

i don't know much, but i think i love you; & that may be all i need to know. look at these eyes; they've never seen what mattered. look at these dreams so beaten & so battered. & when i feel you near me, sometimes i see so clearly. the only truth i've ever known is me & you. i don't know much, but i think i love you; & that may be all there is to know.

[<3]




written on 2003-07-18 at 11:35 p.m.

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