because sometimes as hard as I try I can not be happy.
because sometimes I can't sleep at night.
because sometimes I miss the feeling that everything is okay.
because all of it scares me.
because I might be alone forever.
because I don't know how much longer I can live like this.
because some of the things that I have believed in have fallen to piles of dust at my feet.
because maybe I am tired of it all.
because maybe I am just too sad to go on.