a little bit of a resurrection
my life journal: cutmedown








and I sang holy, holy

pink is lost
along seas of hate
waves of terror and blood
what can I say
never enough
for this
paying forever
for a kiss
can't take any of it
always near
will not forget
blind terror, fear
running away
loved once
not enough
raped once
no need for words
can not fly
battered and bleeding 
ashamed to fly
I know why the caged bird cries
I know why the caged bird dies
there's a little bird
somebody sent
it was me and a gun
lyrics not leant
falling fast
short of breath, quick
took it all
never the same, sick
down to the earth
to live on the wind
and a man on my back
and I have sinned
memories forced
to live
forced to live
only death forgives

written on 2003-01-27 at 9:20 p.m.

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