I apologize for being and feeling so yucky tonite. It's just that I am becoming afraid. Everything that I have seems pale. Does that make sense? Spring Break is over. ha. I remember that one of my ex boyfriends, not the last one, but the one before him, he always used to yell at me for apologizing too much. It's true I have that habit. I apologize for the most stupid shit.
You know I truly and honestly believe that physically I am an ugly person. Sometimes I look in the mirror though and I wish that someone could see me as I see myself. There is beauty here. Maybe it's hiding, afraid like me, but it's here.
I don't want to be alone anymore.
written on 2003-03-23 at 10:53 p.m.
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